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actually yesterday i have something to show, it's something i made at afternoon on thursday. a day before our 4 month anniv. but i tore it up with annoyance :'( . it's not a special thing but that day i wanna show it to you :'( . i made a 'M' letter from cardboard and i also wrote 'I♥Mahathir' on it too , i have the pics but i cant upload it! 

i feel so ungodly, our status is unclear. who am i now in your eyes? your friend? or still a special person in your heart? i do not know! you stay away from me, i think you dont need me anymore so you do that! i know , maybe im not the right person for you. i realize it! but please, gimme a clarity, my heart is not a toy!! i know im bad for you, i always make you hurt, make you disappointed, sad, and so on . but, I LOVE YOU !!! i swear, I DO LOVE YOU :'( . i dont know you still love me or not, but clearly in this blog i say to you "I LOVE YOU" ! but, seems like you dont need me anymore so you move away~~ 

i just want a clarity, just it! im you GIRL FRIEND or im NOT ??!

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Xtra ordinary people

you have idol? of course you have. this time im gonna tell you abt people that iu admire so much!!

1. SUPER JUNIOR

pertama kali tau Super Junior itu dari teman, waktu itu kalo nda salah kelas 2 SMP . namanya temanku itu tiwi (my bestfriend with rifqa and hikma ). Ini tiwi tau super junior juga dari temannya trus dia suka cerita2 soal suju ke saya padahal saya nda ngerti -_- karena penasaran saya cari akun  grup untuk suju di friendster (waktu itu masih jamannya friendster wkwk) dan dapat , saya liat2 mi awalnya biasa2 ji . trus makin lama ini tiwi makin na sebar virus ke saya -_- dia kasih dengar ka lagunya "happiness" dan lumayan sukaa mii pas dengar lagu "sorry sorry" woooww!! langsung sukaa!! langsung cari biodatanya suju di internet, liat2 membernya hihi awalnya saya suka member yang namanya Hangeng (itu yang pernah datang ke Dahsyat) dan besoknya saya ganti haha lebih tertarik ke yang namanya yesung , ini fotonya

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mungkin kalian liat biasa2 ji tapi dengar mi suaranya, SANGAT TIDAK BIASA! alias SANGAT LUAR BIASA (Y) top sekali! dia lead vokal di super junior B-) hehehhee and im an ELF (ever lasting friends) elf itu nama fans nya suju . any elf there? im ELF too, nice to meet you :)) yesung's twitter : here

2. CODY SIMPSON

semua remaja cewek rata2 gila sama justin bieber, saya lebih suka sama juniornya justin, he is "Cody Robert Simpson" . lebih keren, suaranya lebih unik, dan lebih muda dari justin bahkan saya! dia kelahiran '97 !! you see right? he's youger than me & si justin bibir *ups :DD . cody's twitter : here

3. LADY GAGA

tau lagu just dance ? bad romance ? paparazzi ? tau doong! ini mi penyanyinyaa. pertama kali tau lady gaga gara2 dengar lagu just dance dan suka sekaliiii!! sejak saat itu jadi tambah suka sama lady gaga :)) . oh iya dia ini di panggil "mother mosnter" sedangkan fansnya di panggil "little monster" . twitter lady gaga : here

4. DYLAN & COLE SPROUSE (Sprouse twin)

baju merah : cole, baju hitam : dylan

sebenarnya belum terlalu lama tau mereka, masih di  tahun 2011 ini . sejak ortu ku pasang TV Kabel dirumah jadi otomatis suka nonton Disney Channel, nah pertama kali liat mereka di sitkom "suite life on deck" , "suite life of zack and cody" di sitkom ini mereka main sama ashley tisdale, debby ryan, brenda song dll~ karena suka nonton sitkom itu sekarang jadi suka sekali sama mereka!! apa lagi sama dylan :)) tapi saya lupa, siapa yang lebih tua, dylan atau cole hehe :D. twitter dylan : here & cole twitter : here

break up and come back

hello readers! long time no see wkwk do ya miss me? nahh? -__- i know you dont! okayyy im gonna tell you abt my love (again) hihi it's my saddest love story!! lets see

that day was monday, the 1st day of our mid-exam , we're textting each other since the morning, i asked him "dont you have to take ur cousin to her work place?" he replied "no, im going to school to study, i havent study yet" so i told him to met at school , i wanted to go to school too. i told him that i'll take a bath and go to school . he agreed.

i was finished to prepared all my things that needed, and i was ready to left my home. i felt happy that i'll met my boyF at school befor mid-exam started. we met at his class . as always we talked to each other, we did some jokes :') as long as we kidding i was happy, so happy! we laughed together. and suddenly, he did rude thing to me, he pulled my hand roughly , that time i was felt so annoyed to him! i was mad at that time but i told him that "im okay, no problem" but he left me at his class , i just wanna cry that time! HE LEAVE ME ALONE! shitt!! he know my love to him getting decrease and why did he do it to me! dont he think it can make my love disappear ? :'( so i decided to read my text book, i try to not care to him , i go out and we met at beside my class , he gave me "choki-choki" but i deny it. and he walked away to his class. i said to myself I DONT CARE! and again he left his class and text me "if you wanna leave me, it's up to you, i know im bad for you, bla..blaa...blaaa" i met him in front of my class and at glanced i heard he saying "leave me" , and then saying "i want to talk" i just say "oky, c'mon!" 

at his class , i told him "if you want me to leave you, i'll do it!" actually, i have some reasons why i said that! he said "so, you wanna leave me?" i said "YES!" he shocked! (i cant tell you everything) but that time we were BREAK UP ! when i wanted to left that room, he hold my hand strongly , HE DONT WANT TO BREAK UP ! but i want, the reasons are : i dont feel comfort with our dating style it's too over i think and my feeling doesnt as it used to be, it's descrease and almost disappear that's my i decided to end our relationship!

and at night, he call me , we talked on the phone and make all the things are clear! and finally, we 'come-back' he promised me that he will be the best guy for me, and bla bla blaaa~

i gave him 2nd chance , and also why i want to be her girlF again? i was think!! how can i get a guy like this if we're break up! will i can meet a guy like him? it's impossible!! yeah~ so we decided to make our relationship better than before and live happily ever after~

and ofc, "MHTHRNY" still exist ♥